Just trying to relax!

I wish you could force your body to do what you wanted it to do! I knew I wouldn't lose much weight this week, as I am waiting for it to rid of the miscarriage (still no period in sight). But I didn't realize how hard it would be to see only a 3lb drop in the first week of dieting! I usually lose between 5-10lbs the first week, followed by another week of the same! Well my husband has been on his diet for a week longer than I have, but he has lost the 15lbs I wanted to lose! It kinda hurt to see that! I didn't get to weigh myself first thing in the morning though. In fact, I had even eaten 2 meals and a snack already. I know this make a difference, but I am doubting it was a 7lb difference. I will try remember to weigh first thing tomorrow!

I am also getting pissed, like I did with the last miscarriage, that my period is not showing up! I mean what does a woman have to do??? I feel like I have been waiting forever!!! I was told last Tuesday that it should come within 10 days, but this is getting ridiculous!!! So if by Thursday it has not shown up, I will call my RE to see what he wanted to do! I am prepared for it to come! I expect it to be very heavy, but you just never know! I also made sure that I started taking prenatal vitamins, in case the next pregnancy decides to stick! If there ever is another pregnancy that is!

Last night was a rough night and I am sure that is not helping my hormones go crazy! It also makes things a lot hard to deal with! I did work on cleaning the kitchen and also did a tiny workout to try to relieve some stress. I think I will go take a nice LONG shower in my private haven (the basement has turned into a great private place of mine). I made C take charge of the kids tonight. I let him sleep for 7 hours uninterrupted. I, on the other hand, got very little sleep last night. I might even go to bed early if I take my shower right now!

Sounds enough like Heaven that I just might go do that!