Mind is wondering

Okay, so I am sitting here watching Tv and trying not to let my mind wonder! I just wish that my period would come and I wouldn't be sitting here thinking about everything thing that COULD, but probably isn't, a sign! Why do people do this? Why do I do this? I am making myself crazy with wondering! I am even doing a ton to keep busy and keep my mind off of everything.

I know that the chances are slim to none this month! I wish that it was something you could know right away! Not have to go through the 2 week wait hell! I have to go potty all the time and I know that it is just my head playing tricks on me. I hate that! I'm sure that I am drinking more and that is why. But it just makes me wonder?

I have been even thinking about what I would do if I am pregnant. Who will I tell? When will we tell? Will we wait until 12 weeks until we even tell E (our daughter)? When would I be due? Why can't things go easier? What is going on inside my body?

And yet, I know! It is gearing up for a 3-6 day period! Why do I fool myself into hoping and praying and thinking it is possible?

I guess I better get back to the wifely/motherly duties I was doing today! And pick up E in about 25ish minutes!